IS THIS EASTER BANK HOLIDAY?
Well, this Bank Holiday weekend has been unusual. Far from the usual Bank Holidays, many of us have grown accustomed too.
For most, Easter Weekend is usually spent with loved ones; friends, family and trips away, but this has been very different.
Many of us haven’t done what we’d typically do like drop Easter eggs off for nieces and nephews and any other children who look forward to receiving a chocolate gift. We haven’t been able to gather friends and family at our homes and have a BBQ or talk into the early hours of the morning while knocking back alcohol beverages. It’s been quite strange, and something different for our heads to digest. I would normally have called in to see my parents, if it wasn’t their BBQ we were attending, had a cup of tea and more than likely a bun or biscuit that my mum would have baked. She’d have been fussing over the children as grandparents do. But not this weekend, which could explain why I’m feeling peckish. I’d have been playing with my nieces and nephew, having cuddles, and more than likely telling my children off for being too rough with the younger ones. We’d have been having conversations, more than likely talking absolute nonsense. But that, that is my family, and I love all the nonsense we talk and more so being with them. Kisses, cuddles and laughter galore! My children would have also spent time with their father and his family. Inundated with chocolate surprises and fussed over. But not this Easter.
We’ve not let this get us down though. We’ve loitered round the garden, sat and had a few drinks, chilled and read books. Coloured Easter pictures, had a few BBQs on our own, continued our one Marvell movie, per night, snacks included. Completed the little odd job here and there in the house, not wanting to do them all at once though because we don’t want to run out of things to do. Although when I suggested stripping the hallway, my husband responded by telling me he wasn’t that bored yet. Typical!
To cuddle my nieces and nephew, to kiss them, to applaud their new skills in person is so needed right now. My youngest niece has started mastering standing up, with support. She has another tooth, looking more like a little bunny. I would so love to hold her in my arms encouraging her to grin or laugh so I could see that white pearly tooth, rather than look at a picture. But I know if I were daft enough to sneak round I would be posing a risk to them all. I love my family so much that I wouldn’t dream of breaking the social distancing guidelines, and I can’t get my head around why anyone would want to take a chance doing so. We don’t know for sure the exact facts surrounding this virus. The professionals are learning as they go along, and sometimes the initial advice they gave about the virus does not now fit accordingly. Times change, as will this virus and what it presents. We could all be carriers for all we know! We won’t know the full facts until this has all blown over and every single bit of scientific information has been gathered, scrutinised and recorded. Every time I go to the supermarket, which is only once a week, I am exposing myself to the possibility of picking it up. Not through my carelessness but I don’t know if anyone else might have symptoms, be ignoring them, and be putting me as well as other shoppers at risk. Every time I go to the shop, I wonder if this is where I might contract the virus and take it back home? Every week I return from my shop knowing I could now be posing a risk to my children and keeping my fingers crossed, and with a positive mind, I count away the next seven days and pray we don’t start showing any signs of illness. I have a cough, a cough which I am sure is to do with my hayfever and the time I have spent in the garden. But how can I be sure it is my hayfever? How do I know for certain? I don’t. All I can do is hope it isn’t the start of something deadlier.
Yes, what I am saying may sound far fetched, but in my eyes, it isn’t! We cannot be too careful. We don’t know what we are up against or how to stop it in its tracks other than stopping its spread. None of us has qualifications in this subject or its strain. This is not a game to be played with. I pray each day that no one in my family, my friends or anyone I know for that matter catches this deadly virus. Because I know I won’t be able to be with them or say goodbye to them if the worst should happen, and the thought of that makes me more determined to keep my loved ones safe.
I am not depressive or feeling down. I want to share with you my thoughts and feelings. I too am angry that many others are not taking this seriously and are perhaps still allowing friends and family to visit their home while not adhering to the two-meter gap, all for the sake of Easter treats. I’d always suggest making that two-meter gap bigger, just in case we find two meters isn’t enough! Why wait until the professionals tell us it is any different? Why not use our initiative and common sense now? Take that extra precaution, just in case, a little like when we pack to go away for a weekend. We always pack that extra pair of pants or boxers, just in case.
I am not a hypocrite either. My husbands youngest has now come to stay with us for a while because he is finding it difficult being away from his father. This is a tough decision to make, allowing someone else into the home regardless of who they are. We aren’t sure that they haven’t themselves been exposed to any potential risk. We can only take their word for it! These next seven days are again are going to be of concern. When I next do the weekly shop I am then posing as a new risk to this household once again plus our addition. Emotions over keeping safe are a tough call.
I am right now feeling somewhat unnerved and uncertain, but it wasn’t my shout, unfortunately. But, I am going to try my damn hardest not to let these emotions control me. To distract me, I am going to tackle that thing I hate the most! The ironing pile. Following that, if I have any time in the day left, I am going to throw myself into studying with the intention of submitting another assignment.
This should keep me busy for a while, and hopefully, my mindset will have turned around by the morning.
Stay safe, healthy and sensible xx